Becoming Who We Already Are

There is a lovely quote by e.e. cummings that has been on my mind alot recently:

“It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.”

When I was little I wanted to grow up and be many things, but mainly a singer and dancer. I just loved dancing, and how free and beautiful it made me feel. I loved singing, even though I never had the best ear. I took ballet lessons, hip hop classes, and joined the high school choir. I even got the lead role in the high school musical. But now that I am 31, I can look back and see that I never longed to do those things for a living. If someone asked me what I do now, I certainly couldn’t say with confidence that I am a singer and dancer.

A few weeks ago, my parents brought over some of my schoolwork that they uncovered when they moved from Cincinnati to Tennessee. One of the items was a book that I wrote in 1st grade- our teacher had them bound and we illustrated them, so it seemed like a real book. The story was called the “Two Kingdoms”, about two kings who couldn’t get along, but found a way to make peace- all in six pages. :) My husband and I sat and read it together, chuckling at the funny names I picked, and the childlike simplicity of the story. But then it hit me. I loved to write, even back then. I loved to tell stories.

Every day, I come up with ideas for blog posts. Ideas for screenplays. Ideas for stories to tell. My mind is constantly filled, and it’s only when I can sit down and write that I am truly fulfilled. But it is so hard to make time to do it. I don’t know why- I feel such relief when I can get my thoughts out, but I put it off until everything else is done. It takes courage to become who I know I really am. It is scary to sit down in front of a blank page.

I will always love to dance and sing, but I can do that at home when nobody is watching. God is calling me to something, and I can’t keep it to myself. I have to step out and become who I really am- who He created me to be. I hope I have the courage.

What does this quote mean to you?

COMMENTS

  1. says

    This is what is known as Self Awareness.Believing in yourself and chasing your dreams.Wish you Luck. You have found a possibility and You are on it. You will make it happen.

  2. says

    “It is scary to sit down in front of a blank page.” – Amen, sister! I face this fear every time I sit down to write. It does take courage. Be brave! Love you, friend.

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